YOU

I do not know what to think of you anymore.
"A kind soul" I thought first;

'A tragic occurrence' you did not desirv.

But is it just me or has it turned out to be, a way for you to cope

And for me to think?

I feel like I am missing out on something that defines you.

Like I am scaring away;

Now I do not know if I even want to stay.

How did you fall for me, you hardly knew me?

I feel so unpleased with our conversations and still I have this warm new feeling,

But every time you dismiss yourself with all those excuses,
I find myself blue, disordered;

It feels more like a dream, so surreal

I have a hard time distinguishing those weird feelings.

You have placed your life in order,

Mine is a full-on growing mess.

I fear, I could not look you in the eye;

So, I desperately long for you to stay away, to keep a distence

still, I seek your comfort and your closeness,

I often wonder how you see it?

I wonder what I am after;

If you might be the one;

Or maybe I am mistaken?

I had never understood what my heart tries telling;

Then it is so quiet, and I take no notice,

Feels like my thoughts are talking in it's pace.

Now I am left with all those things,

Where should I stat?

Where should I finish?

And when you tell me
you love me

It feels a little different.

Maybe it’s because I am not sure what it means,

Or I just feel dissimilar?

However, you are still special in my heart

And I do not wish to lose you.

I wanted to tell you, I choose you.
But continued to push you.
Now you're far from my reaching
And we have become what I was scared most of...