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Four years of that four-letter word
That I could never wrap my head around
Yet you had no problem constantly repeating the words that surround the surface of your sensitivity
Could you ever say it without a doubt in your mind?
Without a voice in your head
Screaming that it wasn’t right

You were reaching out for something that wasn’t reaching out for you
It’s sad that you never actually knew

How can you put so much trust into someone not knowing how they really feel?
Four years of not knowing the truth that lies directly in front of you
The four-letter word that was never true for you to see
But I could never hurt the smile that appeared on your face
Meaning that I covered everything up by never showing me

Constant guilt rushing through my veins
And out of my eyes I cry for hours
Not knowing where in the world you are
Are you safe knowing that the four-letter word I told you so innocently was never true