Your heart is beating

Sitting on the rooftop 
Gotta take advantage when it's nice out
But my Spotifys not workin right 
Forcing me to think what life's about

Alone alone alone 
Sometimes I just want to be alone 
But factuality I don't actually 
Its a scary thought to be on your own

My heart is thumping because it hurts 
But if it wasn't it'd be way worse 
Do you know why it's called heart beats and not heart thumps? 

Because thumping is just a sound with no other meaning but there's power to the words "my heart is beating"

Yes... it is beating. 
Beating all odds of losing that drive, 
giving up, and no longer trying to fight

Beating the thought that it's easiest to become nothingness 
no reason anymore to strive 
your heart beating is proof that you have beaten the thought to not stay alive. 

And I know 
you hear it all the time on the radio
How good it is to be living 
But it's taken for granted 
when rappers just slant it 
Cuz it's not what we're needing 
And there lungs fill up 
Without realizing they're  even breathing 

They fill them with lies 
Devoid of oxygen 
Saying you need that party life 
To be happy again 

But... you don't. 
Listen kid... you don't
You simply need to hold your hand on your chest 
And breathe 
And realize that you have something 
That somebody needs

A job per say that you only know how to do 
Nobody in this entire galaxy is just like you. 

You are unique and different and I know that that SUCKS 
Because no one gets how your heart bleeds and they cross it off as TOO MUCH 
But your not! Your just the right amount! 
Your exactly enough. 

And if I could then I would 
Reach my hands through the screen to get to you 
And first it'd be alarming besides being dis -arming because it would look that I'm  about to strangle you 

It's the impact I need to get  inside your head that you need to continue being you 
all day all the time everyday through 
And then when I reach your neck I'd grab hold of it.... and hug you. 

Because you need to be hugged
Less so with hands- more so with love. 
I get it, even though my eyes have never seen your face I SEE YOU 

Because believe it or not I am you 
Just a little further along 
So take it from future stronger happier you- that you belong. 

Find something that makes your lips speak and your hands draw 
go for it whole heartedly because it's a vision you saw 

And never apologize for the things your making 
And the art your creating 
Because there's so little loving 
and far too much hating. 

Open your door wide 
tilt your head 
And look in the sky 
Breathe in deep
feel your heartbeat 
And realize 
That loving yourself
Is the first step
to truly being alive