Zombies

Don't look at me! don't touch
me! It is you that hurt me, that ruined me. I walk this earth alone. Do I
dare to love you again, to be vulnerable. When it was you that made me
who I am. Because of you, I don't trust, i feel inadequate, lost,
bruised and broken. So walk right past me, because I wont notice you.
You mean nothing, my heart is cold because of you. I will not look at
you or notice you, because your eyes have always stole my innocence.
Your lies weekend my spirit. But you will not win, You will not tame me.
I will never let go and lose control again. The feeling is unbearable,
like drowning. You take from me so effortlessly, while I give to you so
selflessly. Don't look at me, I don't want you, your eyes filled with
motive, deceit, intent and games. I am the walking result of your effort
to love.

I do not see you, you mean nothing, your pain
and hate, do not effect me, they have just changed me. I know longer see
people, love, compassion, loyalty, dedication or blood. I see zombies.
Your kind are everywhere, I stand alone. Why did you do this to me? Why
have your kind turned yourself inside out for me to see the disgust that
lives inside you. Why has seeing you for what you are and what you
were, still effect me. You hurt me! You built my wall and painted it
grey. I'm alone walking around the dead, left with no hope to feel what
love feels like, no chance to taste purity. You robbed me, and now I
can't stand your kind. So don't look at me, don't talk to me, I will not
acknowledge your existence. The only power I was left with was robbing
you of me. You did this and you wont again. Don't remember me, because I
don't and wont remember u.

Amber Broide