Afraid.

     Im afraid that if i wait forever you wont wait. What if you forget to make my dreams come true? I miss your warm body pressed against mine. I miss your'e touch and how you're hands explored my body like a game of charades. I miss the idea of undressing my heart some more on to you, I miss the little jokes, the little teases, my little out bursts just to get your'e reaction. I miss us and i always will. Im no good without you.....

     Everyday i think about you, and as the years go by i ask myself if your'e really happy. Whose that girl i wonder, whose that guy? We'd both ask each other. They were just faces of different races going nowhere because they lied. It was hard to pretend that i was okay and that i was happy but I wasn't. It was hard pretending to love other people and it turned out to not be real. Its almost like forcing yourself to like green jello when you really dont.

     I pray in secret, i cry in secret, and sometimes i ask God about you. I pray for good health, happiness, and for you to find your'e way back to me. We find our way to each other more then time can spin on one hand,and maybe thats a sign. I hope that maybe one day you'll read this,and you'll smile because everything finally came true.