Can't Sleep

Ever since I was a child it has appeared. A black hole somewhere in the room I lie in. I can crawl into the black hole and I end up engulfed in darkness. When I'm in this darkness all I need to do is think and that thought appears. It becomes real! I can taste it, smell it, feel it and see it. But something about it isn't right.How it comes out of nowhere, but I never see it coming. Like its always been there, I just never noticed it. This black hole tries to trick me into believing its reality. I know its not, but sometimes I let myself believe it is. Sometimes its better than reality.

When I come out of this hole, I don't crawl out. I appear where I was when I first saw the black hole. The way I leave this black hole, this fake reality, I don't find where I came through. I am pulled back to reality by reality. Some smell, sound, someone or thing touching me. Like I'm coming out of some hypnosis . This black hole keeps me from sleeping.