Finding God

About two years ago I found myself in my parking lot in the middle of winter rocking back and forth crying with a blade in my hand ready to end it all. I hated feeling that way so I asked God just like this " please Lord if your really out there please help me. Please just comfort me and let me know that everything is going to be okay. Moments later I felt a worm embrace inside my heart and I heard him tell me everything was going to be okay, and then he became the strength within me. The strength I had needed to find in me I didn't know existed. Tell this very day he is still with me when I start to feel a little weak. Here recently I asked him to just be there with me. To just let me feel his love and his powerful embrace. And he did just that. I use to wonder why he answered me the night in my parking lot and not any other time before. That's when I realised that I couldn't feel him or hear him because I wasn't a true believer and sometimes doubted him. I give him all my devotion. I'm grateful to have found the lord. Because honestly I wouldn't be alive today