Hurt

People always ask me why do i always sing and write really sad things. Its simple and yet so complex. Im always getting my heart broken by those who never meant no harm,and by those who want too. I'm too nice and i always give too much. The biggest way to hurt someone is too ignore them. Forgetting about that LOVE, who i was,and what was their.They say its normal to never forget your first love,but its been six years now and those feelings still remain the same. Our love was like the Notebook because it was all pretty much the same.We always find each other through out the years,and all we do is confess things feelings,and how much we still love each other. But then you take it back,and your confused again,and well?- i pretend to not care. Over the years I've seen different faces and held different hands. Every once in a while i thought of you even though i never admitted to it. I distance myself away from you on purpose because it always ends the same.Being friends with you is hard sometimes because everything just comes back. Here we again " love you" "i cant be with you" " i miss you" "its not going to work". I feel like im on a roller coaster of emotions and i cant even get off because your dragging me back to the top. It hurts but even though we lost each other i feel like i still have a part of you. Distance killed us both and for a long time my heart was dead. God, we were so stupid in love and so damn naive . I dont know where we stand anymore. It hurts sometimes, even as just friends.