Ramble on brother , ramble on

To take time to make the time that so many people forget about putting into making a relationship work 
Usually that time becomes a huge waste of time due to the fact that it's not just minutes and hours that make up the time but rather the emotion and thoughtfulness that goes into the time spent together. 
Lots of people get lost on their way thru the maze of love and the trap of time. Or maybe it's the maze of time and the trap of love. I don't know 
My experience tells me that I'm not cut out at the moment for a true relationship with another human , so I keep on plodding along totally enjoying the relationships I have with the crazy and the mundane world inside my seemingly over crowded depleted brain. When I look at things in this world that most people lust over I am shockingly numb to the existence of the overwhelming never ending well of self worth and pretentious behavior that is put on display by those people for everyone to see. I have lost interest in most things that used to drive me. I've been prescribed more medicine than anyone should take to help cure me of that problem but it doesn't work at all. I'm just getting older and some things have lost their luster while other things have proven to be nothing more than pipe dreams and disenchantment. It's cool with me tho, I've learned to live with this shit a long time ago.  
Do not get me wrong , I'm not giving up and I never will. I adapt and move thru each day that the lord allows me to wake up. A king never to be crowned , that's the way I look at my life. It was pretty friggin promising a few times but I fucked those chances up and I can't imagine getting too many more if at all ever again.