The Day That Never Was

A Day That Never Was

Is it a vision that will come to be or something that's on the border of living and dying

I just sat there, looking around,.... I think I'm in a park somewhere, lawn so beautiful, green, soft to the touch trees of all sorts big, little some have leaves others didn't ,I can't tell if it's spring or autumn and just taking in the fragrance.

Flowers scents drifted in the breeze, I close my eyes and inhale,smelling ,smiling to myself slowly open my eyes looking up, my eyes focus on the leaves, slowly moving waving to say hello,.

I turn, looking behind behind me, in the distance, children's playing, singing so beautiful smiling to myself, were am I, I have never been here before what a peaceful place ,looking around slowly taking everything in, I heard water running, getting up and heading towards the sound, a pond, water lilies floating on top, frogs jumping from one to another and croaking, looking down seeking tadpoles swimming in the under bush around the bank, dragonflies hovering over. a few fish coming up to get some air and swim back down again, bubbles slowly rising up .

I know this place,yet it seems so strange, de ja vu....going back to my seat looking back up at the rays of the sun coming through with dust mites dancing with the slight breeze.
“May I sit”,

I turn my head to see who was speaking to me,

“please,” I said, my eyes looking over him, this man had a hard life, yet he had a glow about him, lines from, sadness and happy, loving lines, long brown hair to his shoulders, brown eyes happy eyes, eyes with love,contentment, this man love with no unconditional,

He said“do you know why you are here”

“No!,but I think I been here before, I just can't remember when, but this place ….its telling me something, I just don't what”.

“what are you here for?, I asked ,are you looking for something or someone too”

Yes in a way,I am I suppose,
" Do I know know you, your face is not formula, yet your presence crams me, it make me feel as if I am loved feel safe" 
"you are, you are not alone, you always have me,"

“have you?”

“Yes,you have,you have put me in the back of your mind and only bring me out sometimes,when you need me just to listen to you, I am their for you, I do not judge you,for what you are,or who you are,I love you for you all ways even when you are on your own and you want to speaking out to me ”

“why do I need do that?”

“Because no one would understand what you are trying to say and how you feel,with your emotions”

“will you,understand me”

“yes all ways”

“thank you”I said.
I don't want to leave this place"
"I know, he said, but this place, waving his hands from side to side, is not your place to be just yet, not your time just a stop over, to rest and for some tranquillity,"
"Why?, why not, my time? ”
" Because other are here too, for tranquillity,"he said.
" Is this a part that may come to us, when our time is near I said".

"Yes it helps the sole to rest, I'm am here for you ,make you feel good, love, and to help you understand,.
"I don't even know your name”.
" I am called a lots of names ,I am one of many, but most of all I have three names,mainly for you others will have difference names for them”
" Hamied, one of logic,Mihr,one of friendship, I brings people together, who have similar life directions,and Ecanus, one of writing,you come under all of these,there are more but for now, these are yours”he said
" You asked me before, why I am are here, I am here to help you to understand,what is your logic telling you, and friendship, what do you want in the friendship of others ,and the writer, why do you write, what do you get out of it, do you enjoy it, why do you need to write it down,? why don't you just talk about it, is it easier for you to express yourself in your way of your writing, rather then you talk about it,you try and write your emotions,how to express your feelings,you try and imagine what would be like if you were in other's situation,
"I sat their thinking about what he just said, turning back to say something, he was gone, standing up, looking around, where did he go, I felt so tired all my energy just seems to drain out of me, sitting back down I wanted to sleep but a bluer came over me, closing my eyes just for a few seconds, on waking up, trying to sit up ,my lungs hurt “

“Don't sit up you are fine, someone said

“ I feel sick” I said
“ It will passed, I go and get you some water”
“Ok, I so sore,and where am I.. I don't know you ,thinking, I remember being in the park I said, sitting, watching and talking to.... I can't remember who I was talking to."
"You mite have been dreaming she said it sounds nice,"
"Yes it was peaceful giving her a smile".
"She smile back, I be back with some water and a table to help with the nausea”
" Thank you"

“You are in the hospital and your daughters and partner will be here soon”.

“Why am I in the hospital”

“You just had a biopsy on your lung,you can go home soon about a hour time”

“I go now, and get the table for you now and some water, you can get up and have a shower if you feel up to it,smiling at me”

“smiling back, thinking back,what was all that about”.