INSIDE MY MIND

My mind held me together

It was a place that kept me safe

Safe from a world that became intolerable

Abuse and neglect were my daily portion

But in my mind, I could imagine a beautiful world- where I was loved and kept safe

I lived and breathed in this world created by my mind

I began to live in my thoughts, but faded slowly from life around me

I tuned out the world and vanished far away from pain, but what I didn't realize was that I had disappeared from living and experiencing life around me

I no longer knew how to deal with people or reality

My mind became my down fall

What once kept me safe and held together, became a prison of my own making

How do I get out of my head?

It's all I know

I listen to my thoughts, within four walls

I was told once- Your mind has done it's job

It has helped you to endure a lot

But it's time to give it a rest!

How do I give it a rest when I can't turn it off?

*The mind truly is a beautiful thing~ but it was never meant to be lived in.