True story

Every day I think about life how I've made it this far 30 years through the bad and the horrible times in my life never was easy growing up in a broken home always moving no friends hardly any family learned everything the hard way from day one remember long sleepless nights as a boy worried about life stressed,confused at the tender age of 10 I began growing fast in the wrong direction first taste of lust first met my addictions smoking to ease my crave and drinking when I'm not getting laid and smoking herb to ease the pain for years thereafter not much changed in and outta schools so couldn't get a solid grade moved around again to a worse place and fell in the worst way 14 and began running with a gang smoke till I pass out and drink heavy school was only to meet girls and get paid before I could establish anything moved back now 15 and addicted to life in the wrong way met a girl along the way my first love that i forceably lost cause her parents didnt like me so kept her locked up away so we drifted away the first scar on my heart so i was down and depressed of course my first break up with no closure i began puffin snow that gave me courage and strength or that's what I used to think popularity was high only in middle school cause how I was getting by used for what I could get and do with very few real people in my life 17 now I move again where I met some good friends I no longer talk to because I've grow through always losing people all my life so why hang on to a relationship or friendship a time of growth that I belive stunned my heart everyone I thought was true still only wanted something I had but I played into it cause they were there people I've made pacts with for the future gone in the past lived with drugs in and out everywhere in sight I was to young to fight So I gave in of course I wanted to be wanted and have fun so I did living day to day staying high all day year later with a group of friends I lived first time I felt I had family as an adolescent did everything together also when I met my second shot at love Ive always been one to love to hard and deep of course pushed her away with the positive views I portrayed always thought of the future I belive coming from a broken family made me cherish something I've never had Im envious of what other people had so I'd try to make it last and I tried to hard she left and that was my hearts second scar at 19 when I really began to change for the better met the only friend I have today who instilled the greatness I posses today work ethic cleaning habits and all got my first job and worked hard every day with horrible pay but was making a change physically mentally and spiritually since then been working every day at 20 was back where I shouldn't have went to have fun with my friend got high and took a ride with my other friend who was drunk just to get into a wreck another change in my life broken collerbone and when my best friend past it put another scar after the hospitality got a lawyer and lump some got my own place spent crazy dwindling down trying to live to loud know I can't look back now wish I knew then what I know now I would be better off instead of living check to check but the trials through my life gave me alot of respect and knowledge if not for the past the future can't exist