suicide talk

I wish people would see how bad depression is , as it's llike a poison inside your head no matter how many pills you take an sometimes it leads to suicide or suicidal thoughts. I deal with depression An suicidal thoughts I know the pain you go through I know how bad life gets when all you think about is just ending it an not thinking twice about it. I know how mentally your just done to where you think its better if you just end it all. I've been there so many times an the sad thing is, is after so long I feel myself going back. I don't have anyone there for me I never have I've always had to fight this alone an I'm gotten so used to not having anyone that the pain inside might just win.. I just want everyone to know if you know someone who's going through a lot stay an be there for them, listen to them or it just might be to late