A Damp Apology

A damp apology

One that I write to you in tears

To the first girl that I held

The first soul I loved with no fear

I'm sorry that you loved me

And that I ever felt the same

I'm sorry that I can't stop your hurting

Because I'm the one to blame

I wish I could take back the heart break

But I learned so much while I was here

Breaking you to find myself

How selfish can I be this year

I try to go back to a different time

But everything has its purpose

I know it's time for us to move on

Because going back makes me nervous

I write to you, my love

Because I don't know how else to say sorry

I text you drunk to say I love you

Because I crave you when life becomes boring 

I crave you in the middle of chaos

I love you in the depth of rain

I didn't know what love felt like

Til I craved you after endless pain

I miss you when I'm lying in bed

Because I know you should be here too

I want to tell you why I'm feeling so low

You should know that I love you