A Dreamer before the Great River

I can love
But do not love me
I have no clear boundary 
between 
Ice and earth

Like a fish out of water
Air is too rich for me so love is too much for me

What will my duties as beloved be
The intensity

Oh God

Once I could lay in my bed
And feel your energy
The tears come the tears go

Now that I feel you near
I never want to let you leave
The electricity of your company
But that was long ago

the moment is gone
 is my spirit darker
though perhaps I  have all eternity
To learn
and the crookedness of my spirit does not matter

I used to think people who loved me were fools
Back when I was a princess
And didn’t notice the rags I wore
I expected love for me
Like waiting for the butler to bring tea

A dreamer before the great river
Fishing with no hook
Showing no wonder
As I caught the fish
Then threw them back into the water

Don’t say you love me
Leave me here by the river
Where there is only the hush
Of time moving past

 I am of this time
I am of this weather
The intensity is mine

Like a fish out of water