A Letter to my Father

You've been here so long,
Now something has gone wrong.
You took me under your wing,
Now you cause so much suffering.
You used to have a heart of gold,
Now all I see is ice cold.
You scream and shout,
Now I can't block it out.
You throw things around,
Now crashing and banging is the only sound.
So many questions flow through my mind,
And answers I can't seem to find.
Why must you be so mad,
Even though youre supposed to be my dad.
Why after all I've gone through,
Must you continue to say "It's not me, It's you?"
Why after I lost trust in one father,
Must you make me start to lose another?
I want to feel safe in your arms,
But you've caused so much harm.
You were supposed to make me smile,
Not act so cruel and vile.
You were supposed to help me fly,
Not sad and scared and to cry.
You're supposed to stand by my side,
Now, I just want to hide.
To you I can't do anything right,
So it's hard to see the light.
Mom tries her best everyday,
But nothing seems to go her way.
Now I don't know,
Will you stay or go?
You may be tough,
But you're going through some stuff.
Wha you went through was scary,
And you changed after the military.
No matter what you go through,
Know the following is true:
There will be times both good and bad,
There will be times happy and sad,
And even though we both will get mad,
I will always love you and I'm glad,
That mom chose you to be my dad.