A MOTHERS PAIN

I sat there and witnessed the struggle
And God knows I was there through all the trouble
Countless nights without sleeping 
I'm sneaking in and out of the room just to make sure that she's breathing 
Her father gave up a long time ago
But I couldn't sit back and watch my daughter die slow
But those rehabs weren't working 
And institutions left my daughter still hurting 
At first I thought it was just a phase
All the arguing and yelling through those crazy days
Not my child I kept saying
Not in my home I kept praying 
But that darkness found its way in
And our whole world began to cave in
My other kids started to hate her
When she lied about being high they would debate her
I guess we were a family that couldn't understand 
A family without a plan
But then she started to do better
It was just like she finally knew better
Then her dad started to come around
And she was starting to look up instead of down
But late one night she just disappeared 
And it's been damn near close to a year
At dinner I'm still cooking for her
Late at night I still go looking for her
We're praying that our daughter will come home
And I'm sick to my stomach thinking that she's out there all alone
Then one night that phone call came
And my life will never be the same 
A mother's pain!