Alcohol

Dear Alcohol, 

You were there for every fall, since the day I turned 21 
You have always been some1
I truly could count on 
When others let me down 
Or truly just didn’t care 
You were just a call away 
No matter the time or day
Wether a bad memory from 
my childhood past 
Or an argument with my 
current or last love 
Whenever they didn’t
see eye to eye with me 
You always had my back 
Helping me to dilute the pain 
Of suppressed feelings of 
thinking I was unwanted
You have matched ounce for ounce every single tear over the years, I have ever poured out
You have never judged nor have you ever turned your back 
You accept me for me regardless my past 
So for that reason you have always been in season 
You have been a crutch I’ve felt I needed throughout this journey called life 
This breaks my heart to say this 
but I only want what is best for myself, call me selfish but I can’t keep remaining your 
ACQUAINTANCE 
The truth is you’re just not any GOOD FOR ME , but that doesn’t mean I hate you 
Nor do I blame you 
For I am an adult and have always had a choice 
It turns out all the relief you have provided, I now see as I get older is only a temporarily band-aid and I want the relief that will last a LIFETIME 
Not just a quick fix that in time leaves me more broken 
So for this reason I realize 
that it is you that MUST GO 
This isn’t just an idea that I’ll change my mind on 
Nor is this a part-time feeling 
but rather a quick, precise and firm decision to cut you totally 
OFF, We can’t even visit 
even if just for a minute because we both know that’ll lead to hours and within a day or night I’ll relapse back to the stage of an unhealthy version of myself , I hope you can forgive me but if not
I totally understand and realize you are entitled to your opinion but I know in my heart 
I MUST MOVE ON ! 

Sincerely ,
Robert  J Grove 
aka: Shallow Waters