Am I ?

She cast her eyes in to the night, staring at the glitter of time.
Processing thoughts in her mind, what are my-self in life.

I ask my-self control              -           tell me what I not know.
I ask my-self discipline          -           tell me what I not forgive.
I ask my-self mastery            -           tell me what I not perceive.
I ask my-self honor                -           tell me what I not long for.
I ask my-self worth                -           tell me why, am I here on Earth.

She wanders and ponders, am I scatter, or does it matter ?