To Angel A Demon (full poem)

To Angel A Demon
Negativity with positive reasons
I'm learning how to live bleeding
Ivm tryna give evil
A new look

"Good morning Donavan, you look
As lost as you would explaining a new book
You're still plagued by uncertainty
Like 'Giving up is only hurting me'
Other hand 'How has having faith worked for me?'
You can lie about your worth to me
While it lies between the dirt and feet
Of daily lives walking the earth and pre-
Tend you're progressing
Just let me make a suggestion
Why live in this world with the state it's in
You'll self-terminate from failure of saving it
Anyway
How is your lousy depressing poetry
Gonna help, your flow is saddening, poor and weak
All you do is bitch about not feeling loved
By your friends, how no female's thinking of
You in a special way and how no one supports your art
Although what you create is from and for the heart
You're better off performing for the dark
Love watching you try to live every day
Fail at happiness in every way
Love how you're torn apart
Your sleeve
Your slow beating over-worn heart
Now correct that title, please and thank you
This is To Demon An Angel
At this point positivity won't save you
You're trying your best
To see how you're blessed
Preaching God is Love
With the living thought that God hates you
Blackheart"

We've been waiting for you
Waiting for you
Waiting for you
Waiting for
Youuuu

To Angel A Demon
Negativity with positive reasons
I'm learning how to live bleeding
I'm tryna give evil
A new look
Take everything you was speaking
Acknowledge it
As honesty
But add onto it
The fact that you don't serve my growth
I let you perform your words, not host
You're just an act before the main event of the concert
God's my biggest fan, must give Her time's worth
So tonight I work
Do what I do best
Inspire
Take over places of darkness and light up
You talk down at me while I write up
Now what I wrote will be the center
Of Heaven's
Attention
The beauty in my struggle lies where my pen is
Venting
Releasing
In darkness I learned what art is
To Angel A Demon

We've been waiting for you
Waiting for you
Waiting for you
Waiting for
Youuuu

I'm performing for my parents, You and Your angels
First things first, let me say thank You
For every thing You've ever done
I always questioned if any of this would ever come
Most of anything in life I've ever won
Was shortcomings
You see the road, it's as if pitchforks loved me
Like they found me attractive
Every time I got past it
It appeared before me again, I look back and
Forth and I grow frustrated like why can't I have a break
All the good things You have to offer
Why I have to wait
Could you blame me if I felt "God is love" and other shit like that is fake
Momma you gave birth to an egg
Those crack and break
Insides meant to pour onto concrete and evaporate
I don't even know if that shit makes
Any sense, I'm so caught up in having great
Lyricism on display
That I might've gone astray
From what I'm gonna say
I tend to always
Operate local to my point
When I need to run express
I'm still speaking in excess
2 train yourself
3 train yourself
4, 5, 6, 7, A, E, B, D, F, N, Q, J, Z
Express yourself already
I was saying you gave birth to a weak child
Aside from these rhymes
I'm not strong enough to be alive
Unless I'm pure evil inside
And have no conscience
And I'm unresponsive
To the thought of the next life
And carry this heart in the next life
But it's just not in me
Then again it is, only against me
My conscience is my enemy
It's the demon convincing me
That You God are love
Just that You love me differently
I'd be lying if I said wasn't listening
Those death requests I wrote You, did you see
Since I'm breathing, apparently not
And it ain't like You're there when he's not
But he's there when You're not
And he's there a lot
So You can understand why negativity doesn't stop
At this point I'm realize this poem is not ending
How I intended
And it's upsetting
Fuck this poem altogether
I'm done, it's whatever