Failed Attempted Phone Call

Here in NYC
The night sky ain't swarmed with stars shining
But with my eyes closed
When my mind roams
The sky sparkles like an ocean would
Love on the brain so I will get emotional
And I'm hoping you
Are open to
A skyline wherever you are
Listen out for a ring when I give you a call
So we can exchange dreams using stars
See I've been loveless for too long
So I'll make sure to never ever do wrong
I just wanna be yours already
Tired of us being stuck in our own worlds already
God I humbly ask You bring us forth already
Send me my soulmate or send me to my soulmate
Why must my soul wait?
Where's my housewarming in this cold place?
Have me ripping frozen tears off my cold face
It's becoming heartbreaking to dream and hope
Enough dark thoughts to revert to suicide notes
Honestly a bit dissatisfied with the rhymes I wrote
The rhyming quality of this poem is bothersome
With each line I become more farther from
The standard I set for my art
I'll keep going ONLY since it's from my heart
On second thought
I rather cut it short
And cut it off

It's always this matter
Where I struggle to put the puzzle together
Know what I wanna say
But still troubled with words anyway
Been puzzled since forever
Why does the thought of you cripple my mind
Make me stumble and trip on my rhymes
Why can't I pack the same rhyming power in my lines
Every time I think of you
Chasing artistic satisfaction
Is like chasing money
No matter how much I'm stacking
I'm never truly happy...
My rhyming quality starts off good
Then it starts cracking as I go along
Until I no longer like it enough to wanna go on
I can usually piece together syllables
Into an elegant visual
But when I write about love
I always fail to be lyrical enough...
To my liking
But who knows
Maybe you'll still like it
And feel invited
To find me
Them famous words, right
In due timing