Anniversaries

Another anniversary and i say the same thing
Of how you are missed and that my heart stings 
Yes this is true, it somehow gets more doable day by day 
But you are never the same not in any sort of way 
Yes you smile and think of the past 
Yes people say "bereavement will pass"
But when you open your eyes and close good night 
You can't help but think of you, wanting to hold you tight 

The guilt and what ifs will always flow
It's something to hold onto, you just can't let go 
Even though we did all we could
It is the what ifs, shoulda, woulda,  could. 
The days go by and your anniversary comes and goes
I think of you now and if you need a hand to hold 

It's weird how life goes on, how dare it without here
you do have up and down days and often shed a tear 

It feels like forever,  it has been hard without you 
You will never ever be forgotten my love believe me that is always true 
For now I lay beside you when I close my eyes at night 
Knowing you with me, I with you, my angel guiding light