Anxiety

It’s happening again..
I’m starting to sweat.
My heart is racing.
Is this the end?
What’s going on?
I can’t breathe!
Welcome to the world
Of Anxiety.
Whether twice a day
Or once a month,
I just can’t seem
To make it stop.
Uncontrollable shaking,
A hurricane of thoughts,
Hyperventilating,
My chest is tightening up!
Am I having a heart attack?
Am I going to die?
Is this the one
That will end my life?
I tell myself to breathe
Through my nose
& Out my mouth.
Finally my heart rate
Is slowing down.
I can breathe a bit better
& my walls are coming down.
Another attack
Has been shot down.
I’ve finally stopped shaking.
I can see straight again.
Another war won
Against my demon.
This wasn’t the first time
& Won’t be my last
Welcome to Anxiety,
A figure from my past.
-Tori Russell