Goodbye, My Friend

I don't know how & I don't know why
I never noticed your silence.
Now here I am in aching tears
Standing before the sirens.
Why did you have to go?
Why did you take your life away?
Was there anything I could've done
To take all your pain away?
It's too late now & I'm ever so sorry
If I ever let you down.
I know this means nothing now.
You're gone & my heart feels shallow,
Like the ocean before the tide.
Why did I not feel the pain
That you always felt inside?
I wish I noticed the signs
& it's too late to apologize for being so blind
But I'm sorry…
I'm sorry that life failed you.
I'm sorry that there was nothing 
That anyone could do.
Your mental demons have won the war
& soon became your end.
So, as I stay here on my knees,
I say with love, goodbye, my friend…
-Tori Russell