Baby Boy

mommy mommy wont you look my way

I try to make you happy but you just scream go away

I paint you a picture and you squeeze my little hand

too hard that hurts

then she breaks my hand

you slap me across the face and my lip bleeds a little

I cry because I dont understand your so big and I'm so little

when daddy gets home he'll make it all better

I was wrong I'm sorry mommy don't hate me

he grabs her by the hair and throws her through a glass door

the dog is barking loudly as he sits right next to me

daddy wont hurt me while dusty protects me

daddy takes my dog and grabs him by the throat

he lifts him up and throw's him

out the bedroom window I hear a yelp, I run to check

he limps but he's ok

then daddy looks at me

pure hatred in his eyes

theres no were to run so I sit there and cry

he raises his hand high as if preparing to strike then

turns around changes his mind and grabs his flask for a spike

he seems to of prepared him self cause then he grabs the lamp he smashes it across my head

I try to breath but cant

I lay on the floor lifelessly

and daddy begins to shout

this time not anger but apologies he shouts

I'm sorry I'm sorry I didnt mean it really

please wake up oh god please dont do this to me

I open up my eyes and say daddy its ok I still love you

he holds me close and for the first time that day I feel love

everything seems ok

as we all sit down for dinner

mom wears makeup

and dad threw up

and baby travis made a stinker

mommy's hand trembles

as she passes dad the meat

I try to think happily as we all begin to eat

that night my mommy tucks me in

I go to sleep waiting

for tomorows fight to begin.