BAGGY SHIRTS

Baggy shirts, thats all I wear
No makeup and no hair
I smile but my family can see
The pain when they look through me
Everyone tries to understand
They tell me to talk
If I need a friend.

I used to feel so pretty inside
Now all I do is hide
My children just smile
Because they don't know what to say
My husband holds my hand
And says it will be okay
I live with the pain of leaving them one day.

I should be more posotive
I know this and I try
But this cancer eats away my heart
I just don't wanna say goodbye.

I see pink ribbons everywhere
It feels great to know they care
Its like one big support group
A cheerleading squad
Rooting for you.

I went to the store the other day
And a little boy walked by
He turned to his mother and asked
"Mommy, is that a guy?"
To others I look so happy
But when I'm home alone I cry.

I do not let my children see
I want them to have happy memories of me
When I wake up every morning
I kneel down and I pray
That god will give me strength
To go about my day.

Even on the mornings
When I feel so small and weak
I think of all the others
Who have it worse then me
I think of all my family
And how much they try
I think of how they need me
Until I reach the sky
So I get up out of bed
With a smile on my face
Get dressed and be happy 
That I have another day.