BAND OF THE YEAR

loss a child not yet formed 
still feels like I lost a fully grown
told he not allowed 2 moan 
just a fact a life happens more than we know
never expect it 2 b me 2 feel shame
go over every last detail wondering Wat I cuda changed 
yet I remain see my friends having laughs pushing new bones in Parma
all I feel is blood leave me feeling alone
never be living I'll ever have a child of my own
wondering Wat to God did I do so bad 2 suffer this atall and not b blessed again start with nothing but the same space I just want to know if a child I'll ever holdaholds healtybaby in my arms and b able 2 name.looking forward to know Wat future holds yet fear paralises if 8 do conceive the unknown
mayb I'm not worthy and God knows this 
so I speak to you hope u r well sent again 2 a family who'll treat u well 
while I have nothing but aching arms an empty name empty space were nothing ever changes