Baneful brickbats begat grievous barrier

Tell tale indelible woe y'all
privy to learn yours truly harbors
traces of the masterful
impregnable prepubescent wall
still extant scads of decades since
complex edifice erected to force tall
adolescence - permanently leaving me,
(a poor buoy at sea) unmoored,
marooned, and furloughed ready for pall
bearers to spill soil upon my
then emaciated stick figure overall.
Courtesy anorexia nervosa,
an unlovely bag of bones
stripped of flesh,
sans unseen deadly invisible pathogens,
who valiantly tried to mothball,
and nearly succeeded, kneaded,
and deeded landfall,
when August parents aghast
at wits end be tiding,
halting, and ramming

an utter disgrace at kick/dodgeball
player with serious
game of life (thrown) off kelter and death,
begat fantasy to excel at athletics
the latter cleated toehold
unanimous decision to install
topnotch scorer anticipating
seeing his name plaque mounted
within glass encasement within guildhall,
faintly hearing inaudible teammates
praised showered, visited
head upon one, with grit and gall,
who clinched championship
wrathful excoriation against me
referee could not forestall,
who fumbled, kindled (as predicted)
loose tongues flaying hide with no rescue
brow beaten into pulp,
I could barely crawl
to escape being skewered
behind eight ball.

Thus the above "FAKE"
metaphor merely written to accentuate
self repudiation delivered
upon head of this defacto scapegoat
bullies endless taunts
bred snickering crowdsource to berate
besieging, jackknifing, and resulting
when old enough to query divine providence
questioning why biological happenstance
linkedin mature haploid male

and female germ cell united
in sexual reproduction
to form zygote and future nebbish,
namely writer of these words
triggering random chain of events
whereby a fertilized ovum courtesy mitosis,
(a type of cell division
resulting in two daughter cells
each having the same number
and kind of chromosomes
as the parent nucleus),
typical of ordinary tissue growth

such random genetic dice throw did create
genesis of yours truly
wrought cellular differentiation
implacable existentialism debate
asper my grant (migrant)
humph...pariah status
to learn social skills quite late,
and apathetically to marry and mate
despite ambivalence within my pate
even now...the entombed fortress prison wall,
I cannot obliterate
hence... no surprise WALLS - I HATE!