Batten the Hatches or With the good comes the bad.

In order for us to appreciate the good

We have to experience some bad

That is the way it goes sometimes.

Sometimes it can be a little inconvenience

Like being stuck in the middle of traffic

Or it could be something that will test you.

I should have known that when the Adonis was harassing you.

I had never dealt with anything like that before.

This was a new experience, one that I had to tread lightly on.

But like I said, the damage had been done.

There were those who did understand what was going on.

Yet at the same time there were those who needed to give their two cents

Excuse me?! What gives you the right to say that to me?!

I understand that you are trying to look out for me ,

But what gives you the right to try to plant the seeds of doubt?!

Do you know anything about her?!?

It’s easy for you to judge when you have never been there?!

So, for the love of God please shut up unless you have the facts!!!!

Fucking busybodies, I understand that they mean well.

But sometimes those we call family can’t always give the best advice.

In fact, I wish I did not say anything to them about the situation.

Unfortunately, someone else said something to them about it all.

I wanted to punch them for even letting them know where I was.

Of course once it was mentioned, the rest of the hens decided to start clucking.

I know you had your reasons to be scared of him, I didn’t think lightly of it.

In fact, it only made me more determined to meet him.

Even though I know I seem passive and would choose mediation before fighting.

The fact that he would not leave you alone, only brought out the fighter in me.

I hated seeing you in fear, worried for your family and anyone else that got in his way.

But the fact he tried to follow us from San Bernardino, just to find where you were.

Only made me ready to fight more.

Yet, this was only the prelude of more things to come.

I remember the month everything decided to come to a head.

You finally went back to the job that you wanted.

It was a new beginning for you, but at the same time you started to push me away.

It started small at first, you started breaking promises and becoming a little flaky.

Even though I was talking about moving into a place with you…

It just always seemed any type of thing that changed the status quo was too much.

This led to our first real fight; looking back we were both at fault.

We were able to get past that first volley, but it was not without casualties.

Some things started to be shaky especially given more glimpses into your world.

Fortunately, some of these problems subsided and we still grew closer.

But at the same time I still sensed trouble on the horizon,

Yet I ignored and prayed that this would pass.

So much for prayer.

A couple of months, you started going becoming more destructive

This time doing everything to push me away after getting closer to you.

You started attacking me and like a fool I posted something about it.

Of course that led to more trouble that was not limited to

A friend of mine calling you thinking that you were someone from

The days her and I went to High School.

That definitely did not help matters.

 In fact it all blew up while I was on the road.

That just made a situation I was hoping to handle everything when I got home.

Feel like I was walking into a personal Pearl Harbor that I wasn’t prepared for.

I blame myself for some of it, especially the mistakes that were mine to own.

But you kept pushing me away even at the Hospital even to the point where

You said you felt like you lost something.

All the pressure from that moment just made me snap.

Instead of the woman I fell in love with.
I was introduced to an ice cold queen….

Who did not even care who she hurt in the process.

Those next few days turned into a bitter Hell.

One I still remember like yesterday.

My emotions were still highs and lows

You were still doing this whole not sure of anything.

It was like you wanted to be there but you just kept away.

But I went back to another moment in time not long before this.

My mind remembered what you told me.

That was an understatement; you had me ready to run.

And that was the last thing I wanted to do

That was the one thing you did not want me to do .

We talked and I told you what I was feeling.

Until I decided to just let it all out.

And told you that you were full of shit!

That you let a man who abused you, lied to you and worse

Get away with doing that to you, and you still gave him a chance.

But when it came to me, someone who actually loved you

You looked to cause more damage than good.

I drove off, but like that last that first kiss

You got me to turn back around towards you.

The words you sent me, no matter how humorous they were

Actually got me to come back.

But at the same time, I managed to get through to you.

Especially if went spent that next day making up.

We both realized how bad that situation was

That was when we did our best to make it work.

Yet that moment where we realized how much we did love each other

Came at the most unexpected of situations.

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