Beauty In The Struggle

So caught up with desire, we disregard possession
It gets bad enough, we question God's intentions
Lose sight of our blessings and they become hard to mention
When we think of ourselves
Start to sink in our hell
Know this all too well
Something I see in myself
So I put on J. Cole and I sing to myself

No such thing as a life that's better than yours
No such thing as a life that's better than yours
No such thing as a life that's better than yours
No such thing, no such thing

I ask God for things and see it in others' hands
Time passes and it's no easier to understand
Nor is it any easier to maintain faith
Life has its ups and downs
Everything ain't straight
But the struggle never slows down
The struggle is the reason that I need go NOW
Need experience for a good paying job
But need a job to get experience
Need a job for employers to consider me...
Seriously?
The logic there just isn't hitting me
In school to get a degree
Just to work doing something that still isn't me
But let me guess
Nothing happens overnight?
Education is key
But no doors have opened right?
These same doors I'm trying to unlock
My friends are walking out
With the same blessings we're talking bout
I can't help it....
This left out feeling is too agressive....

(And in working on getting the things you desire...and always seeing everyone else with it, your natural reaction is to look in your hands, look at your life....and wonder what you did wrong or didn't do right. That's the ego in charge as I've been told. But we're human, some people like myself can't help feel this way in this situation. So how do you get yourself to wholeheartedly disregard that feeling? Well honestly, I can't give you a complete and whole answer because I'm in the process of discovering that myself. But I can tell you, I've made some kinda progress at it.)

So caught up with desire, I disregard possession
It gets bad enough, I question God's intentions
Lose sight of my blessings and they become hard to mention
When I think of myself
Start to sink in my hell
To a depth not too far from Red Atlantis
Guess the reason why I never landed
Was because of this other feeling I had
Complete opposite
Always showed itself in every single low I would hit
So even at rock bottom
Never set foot
I see it today as God reminding me of a better outlook
Which I painted myself in my journal and rhyme books

(Every time I look at my writing....I think about the aspirations and dreams I have for it. I feel like I have something special. Something that will get me places, something that will help me make some kind of positive impact on the world. I've made the choice to pursue music professionally and fulfill my duty as the Most Inspiring Artist Alive. As many times as I've had thoughts about dying and not wanting to live anymore, I have this opposing feeling that always reminds me in that dark place, "If you die now, you'll never know. You'll take from yourself the mere possibility...and you'll probably want to to die even more while in spirit form, knowing how hard you tend to be on yourself. That right there - THAT IS HELL. A worse hell than you put yourself through because you've been owned by your struggle instead of owning your struggle.)

Enough about me
This poem is for you
What the fuck does anything I been through
Have to do with you?
For some reason I thought it connected
On this one suggestion
Competition
Of all things life is
Remind yourself that's one thing life ISN'T
Specifically race I mean
You are where you are and that's alright
You're young like me so you have much more life
You have what you have and that's alright
You're young like me so you have much more life
The best things in life come to be from growth
That goes for you and me both
We are moons in our own night-like moments
Our darkness is a chance to shine over the oceans
We shall prosper
We shall conquer
We don't get lost the more we wander
We're leaders
We start our own path
We become the example for those doing bad
And we make a way for those who are just like us
Who struggle with themselves and feel life sucks
You right now couldn't be more valuable if you tried
I know,
That's opposite of how you feel inside
But thanks to your story
I'm reminded why I need to stay alive
There's so many people like us
My dream's to save their lives
So God bless you
Keep going and stay humble
And remember this poem's title
There's "Beauty In The Struggle".