Because of Him

Because of him

Living life in the fast lane,
Drinking rum and smokin Mary Jane
Trying to escape all these
Fucked up pains
There was a time life seemed
To be alright that was until I met this guy
He made me smile he made me laugh,
but then he made me cry
Everything he said was nothing but lies,
I knew what was up but yet I still tried.
The only thing I wanted was his love and time,
Started to think God finally sent the right one my way,
Went on vacation and enjoyed
every min of that time,
Grew to love and adore his girls.
I'll always cherish the time I spent with his children,
The laughs we shared at the laundry mat,
Laughed so hard our stomachs Started ache.
Id stay up late with his youngest,
Laughing and goofing around,
I'm thankful for all our good times,
To cherish them for the rest of time.
The day we broke up he said he thought we moved to fast,
Funny thing is I asked that question first,
Months prior i asked  just that,
The answer he gave was "no silly I love you and you deserve to be happy a cared about",
Beliving his lies made me worse then before we met,
I hate how broken, lost, alone, and scared I feel.
I'm trying to move on and I'm trying to forget,
For some reason I cant like I have the rest.