"Be"ing "Me"

Being me is meaningful,but with a beautiful, not menacing soul.
I'm not hard to memorize or recognize, especially with my best smile.
Behold, it's just a mask before you, a better way to hide the melancholy inside.
Bewitching emotions merely betray this man beneath the surface you see.

Oh yes, i do pray  and meditate way beyond what's required recently.
Yet,, i believe it may be a meager effort in the bigger picture called my life.
Besides, my memories are beginning to beat my body to death again.
And deep depression is leaving evidence of it's internal destruction, outwardly.

I once thought i was meeting all of my expectations, i must mention.
Meanwhile, the situation has progressed way beyond simple bewilderment.
Like melting ice cream, i'm in between stability, and becoming a mega mess.
So on behalf of my sanity, i beseech you God, for your tender mercy.

Now did you send me a memo, or leave a message behind my beloved?
Are my behavior patterns measuring up to, or are they below your standards?
I ask you for a beacon to get somewhere i belong, and with a mellow mentality.
Becoming a member, not a beast or a beggar.  Just your mediator for the worlds benefit.