Honestly, Unfortunately

There are things i've done i claimed as accidents,
they were actually done quite deliberately.
I couldn't stand to see other people happy,
and i wanted them to join me in my misery.

I knocked a bunch of peoples in my day,
young, old, and yeah, some females too.
But it's not cool to do such things to folks,
for violence is something we should not do.

I've cheated on tests, girlfriends and games,
thought i was actually winning at something.
Turns out,none of that foolishness was necessary,
should have found something else to do more exciting.

Gotten myself to the point of exposure over, and over again,
yet the rules i follow, saved me many, many times.
Only my lord God could truly know what was really up,
while i committed a vast variety of wrongdoing and crimes.

Being nasty to as many as possible,
was just a little thing i put a lot of effort into.
Instead of using my efforts and talents for positive gains,
for not just myself, but for the people i love too.

Really careful and methodical in my ways,
i left no prints nor evidence of any sort.
Just to look at me, you really couldn't tell at all,
if i was one of those guys you'd always see in court.

My priorities were corrupt, nothing was pure,
i did things the way i wanted to do them.
Refusal to see the larger picture of life,
so i was really way out of control back then.

And no i'm not beating myself over all of this,
because it's one thing to say things you don't mean.
It's better to make an effort not to do bad things again,
i just think it's time to make my soul clean.

So for once, i will violate my fifth rule, silence,
but there's no need to hand out specifics about them.
Because the law is , well, still the law nowadays,
and besides, my violations will not describe how, why, or when.

There is one other thing i can be totally honest about,
pay attention world, because this concerns all of you.
​I'm sorry for all of the people I've ever hurt in my life,
and since my past is done and over with now,

All of my next crimes will be new.

Unfortunately....