Big Girls Don't Cry

"The saying goes
big girls don't cry
Well I try
Just look I'm
a babbling
mess
how it happened
just guess
I lost my blanky
that made me
secure
shit hit the fan
stench much worse
than manure
Now I'm battling withdrawal
and gone into freeze
an ultimate betrayal
the challenge 
a tease
Can't negotiate the
spat
cause its lost all
that chat
I'm embarrassed 
to tell
how my cell
went to hell
Then anxiety hit
cause the thing
took a dip
God It's so
 personal
mobiles not
workable
Now my secret
is told
cause
the loo
got my
gold