Brake

I'll admit, relative to most guys,
I'm a bit of an oddball.
Where they want to stall,
I jump right in. Honestly, it drives me crazy.
I see her, and my heart picks up.
I know this will pass, but it still scares me.
I know I fo way too fast to be normal,
I overcommit to something,
and then that ruins it.
I keep seeing her, Seeing her smile,
I guess Instinct then,
to want to smile back at her,
to feel happy again,
to drop my guard and trust her.
My biggest problem,
I'm trusting of girls,
even when they have hurt me.
I try to space myself before,
before I get in too deep,
before there is no return.
And yet,
She still smiles at me,
and I smile back.
Yay Me.