Broken

Was with this boy for so long,
But everything about us was so wrong,
Couldn’t handle being treated like he didn’t care,
When I was sad or crying he was never there,
He always got so angry when I tried to make some friends,
There was nobody left to help me and so it had to end,
Then a life destroying rumour about me got spread,
And there I was hanging by a thread,
He got carried away with trying to destroy my life,
That was the first time in years that I picked up a knife,
Crying so much that I couldn’t breathe,
I knew right at that moment that I needed to leave,
I got some drugs and for a while I didn’t need to cry,
But by the time sun had rose I really wanted to die,
I had to go to work that day but the tears did not go,
I got sent home from work for once because my mood was very low,
Why you said those words to me I’ll never understand,
I did everything I could for you; I loved you more than planned,
I over looked the things you did like screaming every day,
Always needing stupid drugs and always making me pay,
All the pathetic lies I bought and how I trusted you,
Listening to how important I was but you never proved it true,
My heart is actually broken more than in its ever been,
Not because I still love you; but a future for us was seen,
I want to say I miss you but I only miss the trust,
Having someone to talk to when my life was starting to rust,
My life is falling apart again and I don’t know what to do,
I don’t know why this is happening but I know it’s because of you,
I’ve had so many sleepless nights thinking about ways to die,
I’ve had so many sleepless nights and all I can do is cry,
Stealing my money and calling me terrible names,
The only thing you ever did was play stupid games,
I really loved you and I know you never cared,
I had to cry alone while I was really scared,
Tell me to kill myself again and I swear I will be dead,
Then maybe you will regret the horrible things you said,
Besides all this depression you also made me mad,
You never even trusted me, you believed that lying lad,
I don’t know why you believed him and you believed I’m such a whore,
You never even tried to stop me from walking out that door,
You think I’m a cheater; you think I’m a slut but I really don’t care,
All the shit your spreading is the reason Paige was there,
I don’t care about getting hit; come at me with a bat,
But I do care about dying alone and your rumour helps with that,
Well here’s the stuff you always you knew and the things I couldn’t say,
I only ever stayed with you because I thought you’d grow up one day.

ed my family, friendships and future. I miss the real
me.