broken

On my roof looking at the stars at night,
Drinking a cold bottle of wine, talking about each others lives.
Hugging and kissing telling each other everything's going to be alright.
Staying the night with you by my side had made me realize
That God had taken me by surprise and finally showed me the sunlight

I couldn't believe my eyes
Sleeping next to an angel as we Held each other tight
Sweet dreams and goodnight
I'll see you tomorrow after the sunrise...

"Good morning"
She said, as she woke up before me
Got up started cuddling and watching movies

Laughing and playing
Beating video games
After her I never looked at any other woman the same

Treating each other to dinner
Talking and being good listeners
Head back home and roll some dro blunt pinners

Smoking and drinking
Dancing and singing
Bringing the best out of me and kept me breathing,
until she showed me the sunset and my heart stopped beating...

The sun has set
And I'm sitting here wondering what caused this butterfly effect
And I just want you to know that I love you and to never forget
And that's as good as my words for this will ever get
cause I hate having to pretend that we've never even met
When deep inside my heart you're all I got left.

You say I've hurt you ten times worse than any route we ever could've gone down
Yet you don't want to see me for the only times I'm able to make it into town.
You've been showing me that you don't care even though you say you do,
calling me an asshole and saying fuck you, don't you know that those words hurt too?

Sometimes I feel like you don't care that I hurt,
I wish you'd understand that loving someone who wants to be friends is the worst
I swear to god that I'm cursed
cause at times you make me feel like there's always a chance but it gets reversed
Leaving me broken telling me it's never going to work

You say I have a big piece of your heart, but I'm waking up every morning like a kid crying in the middle of the night in the dark
I guess it's time for us to depart
I wish you could understand and see how bad this is tearing me apart

You say it's as easy as letting go,
But it's never easy when you don't want someone you love to become someone you used to know

I want to believe you when you say everything will be okay,
But it won't be since you were the one who decided to walk away

Don't worry about leaving me astray
I feel betrayed, for you no worries to feel anyways
Telling me you're not talking to anyone but found out your talking to some other guy out of the state

I gave you my heart not because I love you, but because I wanted to help you from being broken too

Ended up hurting myself too in the process because I thought we could've made some sort of progress
No matter how hard I stress,
I am always going to be wishing you the best
Because when I love someone I don't destroy them as a person and make them feel that they are any less.

If you did love me, you wouldn't have lied, but at least I can't say that With this relationship I didn't try,
Because I did and I hope to god you found the right guy
Because someday I may die
And it will be the last time we will be by each others side,
And all I want for you is to remember and feel how much I cared about you and on the night I said I love you and goodbye.