"Broken Stairs" part(1)

             "Broken Stairs"

                  part(1)

My life has no value now, yet many do i owe,

a broken down manikin, reaps now, what he sow.

Setting on what may be my death bed,

poking fun at father time,

questioning my past life and that,

which has not yet, been (allowed) to live.

A thought came to mind and it seems,

it's become evident, that oblivious to this life,

what I have left behind, (but grant it), so much,

have I still, left to give.

A hard life, I've lived but now without regret,

hastily have i tucked away and sadly,

have i now placed behind me,

the seeds to my demise.

I come to you tonight in prayer, a broken down man,

no smile left on face but with heart held in hand.

There were stumbles,(yes made) but just as many recoveries,

down played and never once heard, was my cries.

A life of final days, with many obstacles, that appeared nearer,

(surely) then they were far.

There's no means of reprieve, from any due sanctions (imposed),

from a full blown out war.

An opened and closed book, with lacking of any prestige,

so why would I, spend another day, on this planet

I've been through life, already judged and condemned

and fate, by you, now said to be etched in granite.

Sadly enough, life took the best of me and for death,

well, opportunity, now frantically knocks.

No I did no crime, aged well and now beyond prime,

But what if we, could turn back the hands, on our clocks.

In the distance, lie a grand door of gold and stair case,

cast in shaved pearls of white accent.

A carpet of red, on lengthy golden stairs, a sign, as a reminder,

''Life wasn't gave but through God, it was lent.''

My life has no value now, yet many do i still owe,

i've earned a penny for each thought,

although i plant a seed,

that just won't grow.

To be continued............Jim

About the poem: A man, whom has come close to death (3) individual times already but as he climbs the stairs to heaven, he constantly comes to one, that is broken and impedes his continued escalation to heaven. Selfishly is he oblivious, to the reason he hasn't been allowed to proceed further..Not acknowledging, that God has plans for him to assist the innocent life of a wayward, yet troubling and confused life, of another who has sadly lost their way and is in need, of some form of divine intervention...(several parts to this poem)...