Burden

So many feelings inside,
So many things I try to hide.
I know it’s not good to tuck them away,
But what else can I do or say?
The people I care for too much,
I don’t want to burden them with emotions and such.
I heal by talking and just laughing aloud, 
But sometimes I feel it isn’t allowed.
Just to talk over the miles,
Can cause the greatest of smiles.
I help others but don’t ask in return,
So like a fire, these thoughts will burn.
Thoughts of sending a message to a friend,
But I fear friendships will end. 
And to those closer to my heart I can’t bare,
My sorrows I don’t share. 
In a bubble of grey I roam,
These words I choke on like ocean foam. 
I lie to others saying “I’m fine, really, I’m okay,” 
But instead I’m going further astray.
I try not to cry, 
So they don’t ask why.
The truth is, I don’t know,
Its just how life goes.
Even still these emotions I hide,
Because I’d be a burden to those I’d confide.