Captive

Captive

It keeps me in suspense

Holding me captive all these years

Filling me with such adventures

Telling me stories so real

Things I can do but never tried

Fantastic stories it told me with not a sound

It holds me captive with all the wants and my desires

Experiences I should have experienced

Happiness I was suppose to enjoy

It holds me captive with no escape

I have tried but maybe not

I just realized who my captor is

Is it too late

Do I have the courage to confront my captor

 Even more troubling do I have the desire

Is it too late and will it solve my problems

It scares me with such sad visions and I’m tired of being scared and sad

Even though I need to break free and even though I now know my captor

For all these years the pain and sadness that my captor put me through

It’s still gratifying for me to finally figure out who my captor is

But at the same time I am dishearten to say that my captor has been my own mind

It wasn’t just bad luck and it wasn’t just them

Isn’t it quite ironic

To learn I have been my own worst enemy

                                                                                 Jack Bellis

                                                                                                                      5/14/2017