Checkmate

My mind has created, 
A constant need for admiration, 

Life taught me about patience, 
Which lead me to self hatred, 

This path is not my own, 
Yet I’m expected to be grown, 

In a world of all children, 
Without fathers and no kindred, 

Forced to believe in a God, 
Who never answers when called, 

At least believing in something, 
Is better than nothing at all.