"Clinging to Hope"

"What a saddened,
state of affairs,
for in active addiction,
I thought,
not one single person cared,
and even if that were true,
that wasn't the case,
of The Loving God,
that I never knew,
or tried to believe,
because faith was something,
I thought was a trifled notion,
to shepherd the sheep,
and control,
their silly weak minds,
in what they called praise and devotion,
but when I died,
those two worlds,
did collide,
I hit my knees,
and it was to God I cried,
and that is why,
I am still alive writing,
and still clinging to hope,
and spiritually fighting,
because Jesus needs me,
just as I need Him,
and I know now,
He isn't just based,
on some fancy notion or whim,
that He can keep you,
safe and sound,
and make a smile,
pop on your face,
from His Grace,
that you're still alive,
and around."