co-exist

When you think about it,
               How things co-exist is strange.
They can live in harmony or be parasitic,
               Or like they didn’t know they exist, no point of exchange.
The worst is when you live through all three,
               You go through so much the thing that hurts the most is the change.
I used to love you, every sight of you made me smile and fill me with glee,
               Now I see you and nothing follow but this trail of sorrow and make believe.
I do my best to act like you never existed,
               Like it will turn back time and I wouldn’t have changed into what I am.
I say I no longer care, but the reality is…
               I have changed, I dress much nicer, am prouder of who I am, and worked on my body.
It impresses everyone I meet now,
               Except the one I needed it too, you.
I have started drinking so much to try and numb the numbness you gave me,
               It always leads back to you in my head however.
Every song, sit down restaurant, event, and even the holidays,
               Make me think of you.
I wish this wasn’t true because it’s ruining and yet making me my absolute self,
               Just because, we decided to co-exist