Cold Turkey

I’m a quitter, I just can’t finish what I started. 15 years consecutively, thousands of bottles. Never a break in-between buzzes, seldom pauses here and there.

I was always the life of a party, never without a drink in my hand. Mornings always began with coughing, hungover and feeling like shit. Nothing a Bloody Mary or Mimosa can’t cure, better to keep the buzz alive then to let it quit.

From 18 until now at age 33, I’ve always had nice things. A great job that pays way above average, multiple cars, many toys and always a nice place to call home. I guess that’s what defines a functioning alcoholic, what a contradicting term.

So I have decided amidst this adopted and developed pattern of alcoholism that I need to make a change, so I’m quitting “ Cold Turkey “.

It’s officially my 14th day and not one drop have I partaken. I have experienced the worse sweats every night with body shakes and trembles. I have felt worse during this course then when I had Covid.

Each night the symptoms become a little less harsh as I assume my body adapts to becoming less dependent, my sleep has been incredibly good considering the above. My energy levels seem lower which I thought was strange but my appetite for sweet items has never been so abundant.

I have lost 8 pounds, now I have never been overweight but I’m already more lean, my mood swings have been a little offsetting but I’m reminded by myself and fiancé it’s normal and she’s understanding.

With each day and night gone by I become more proud as I know and realize this vice and abuse was something I got handed down. It takes 90 days for the brain to be fully free from the alcohol so that’s my short term goal but by then o feel like I won’t won’t to go back again to the alcohol.

For anyone else that is going through the same thing, I recommend communicating with a support system about your goal and understanding why it is you want to try to quit, that has been the best motivation.

It’s tough at times but as the time goes by the difference in how you feel and the validity of knowing your no longer dependent on it is priceless .