Congratulations

                              I didn't expect it to hurt so much and mostly because it wasn't a boy, but because it was you. I know that you left because you wanted to find yourself and I congratulate you because I dont know if I could. But I think what really triggered me the most was the fact that you posted a video your life but couldn't even reply back to me after months. For the record, yes I'm doing fine and I'm almost done with school and yes I've broken down before for many other reasons. Its not so simple open  up to other people about my problems even if its friends or my boyfriend.  Every friend I  have have their own  best friend and I'm not theirs........
                              I dont know why it triggered me so much when I was fine a few months ago and I dont know why it hurt so much ? I dont know why I cried in the car and zoning off into nothing. But I guess your doing well, and I guess you found yourself. I dont know how it started, and why the silence crept in so fast but I'm wondering how I became a stranger..?

And  why does it still hurt much?
I thought ending a romantic relantionship would hurt more.......
But what really gets to me  is that your not my best friend anymore
and the word "EX" still stands in front of it.
I really hate that word.
I didn't expect it to hurt so much and mostly because it wasn't a boy, but because it was you.

~ Congratulations I dont hate you.