Crazy Grin

Curves and hollows and flat places
I gaze at you 
Lying there in soft light
With a grin of good sex on your face
No cigarette though
Gave that up a year ago right?
Now eyelids heavy and breathing deep
You nestle in next to me 
As if you were at home here
In my bed, in my life
After blowing me away a year ago
Turing my life into a nightmare of pain
Not knowing or grasping what happened
Where you went
I cried so many tears here 
In this bed you are dreaming in
and I
Have a crazy grin on my face
Watching as your chest rises and falls
Seeing your eyelashes on your cheek
All is forgivenj