Dad and brother

Even though you are not here
I can still hear your voice 
I can you replay videos of you and see you near the river fishing or playing basketball ? or playing games 
Calling me sissy cause when you were little you couldn't say my name 
I show grief in a different way 
I cry when no one is looking 
Or write poems 
To help me cope 
It bothers me that we weren't closer
Now we can't ever be 
You and daddy left me 
Way too early 
So mad ? 
I promise I'll make you both proud 
Please come into my dreams 
Just don't make them into nightmares 
Like I've been having 
My heart feels like its been torn apart 
Like there's barely anything left 
I keep replaying 
Both of your deaths 
Even though I wasn't there 
I need to know if you 
Both are ok
So I can get better and 
Make you proud 
Love ❤️ and miss you both more than you will ever know 
By Christina pierce