Death of a Dreamer

Waking up
Never felt so unnerving
The soothing touch of numbness
On my mind
Ebbs away ever so slowly
And I'm afraid, to think
Its all too clear
My dreams fading
Becoming far and few between
Depression, an unflinching stone
Sits heavily upon this cigarette-stained soul
I still call my own
Ripped apart shamelessly
By merciless fiends, come crawling
Out of the dark, hungry to devour
To quench my dimming light
An expected consequence I suppose
For ignorance and a life not lived
A heavy price paid, a cross I must bear
Desperate to purge myself, not caring
For the rising stench of filth and blood I kneel in
I look towards the sky
Where my stars remain crossed
And forget to pray
I am silent, there isn't any more
For me to say that matters anyway
No magic words to reveal a glorified outcome
Resigned instead
To watch myself implode
'til there is nothing worthwhile
Left to be remembered.