Deceitful heart

When you don’t talk to others, but you start to trust so you let them in,
you do and tell your hearts secrets then you see you can’t trust them the friendship ends before it even begins.

 They pretend to listen, and they pretend to care,
but when the truth comes out you see they were never there.

They said I’m always there for you of course ill be your friend,
but all along its just a gossip game, and your causing problems and breaking bonds that will never again mend.

I trusted you and told you everything when I barely knew you,
I felt like you had my back and truly cared but now I look like a fool.

The wall I had once had up for new friends, love, or to get close to anyone was tore down but now it will be built back up,
I won’t let anyone close to it again that bonds messed up.

That’s why I hold everything in and I keep it bottled up inside, that’s why when they say can I be your friend I always ask them why,
I even let my guard down and I let go of my pride, even when you were upset in me you could always confide.

I thought you were on my side I thought we were a team,
but I guess they say things aren’t at all what they seem or appear to be.

 Some people just want diamonds some of them just want pearls, but for me loyalty and faithfulness means so much more it means the world.

If you break my trust you become just another associate to me, I don’t get close to many in life but a select few and my family.

 It’s not a grudge but it’s just me being careful because I know how I am, if I fall for anything and everything I will no longer even stand.

I was taught to treat others how you want to be treated and do unto others as you will have them do unto you, not when some one stabs you in the back, fight back and stab them in the back too, or when your old friends bail out go out and find someone new.

 I was taught to keep your friends close but your enemies closer,
to always smile and fight negativity and remain humble and kosher.

I smile on the outside and I always keeps a watch for the snakes, I don’t hang with anyone nor do I hang with the fake. I always listen to others, help them and if I have I always give,
I hate to see anyone without, or down and when you do me wrong I pray and still forgive.

I know God made us all different though and we are all unique in different ways, some people are miserable, and some don’t even pray, so I take it day by day, always down for change, but around negative energy I refuse to stay.
 
If your mad with me I rather you speak your mind and tell me why, than walk around quiet and not knowing the whole truth but instead all the lies. I don’t tell a lie especially not behind your back, ill say it to your face, but letting time go by with things unsaid that time can never be replaced.
 
Life is too short to live it unhappily or live with regret, with hatred in your heart and with things left unsaid. Talk it out and work it out before it gets to late, it takes less energy to smile than frown, less to love and more to hate.

A deceitful heart is like dry bones in the dirt, a joyful heart is good medicine, you should always heal, and help mend the broken not, tear down, look down on others and see them hurt.

Live wisely and always try to make smart decisions, remain positive and build each other up be a friend not see each other in a storm alone all in the trenches.
 God should be inside all of us, for him we should always live,
you live you learn, some crash and burn not every battle in life will you come out on top of,  nor everyone of them you win.
 
By: Maurita Boone
                                                                                                     09/29/2018