Divorce

You say better or for worse sickness and
In health but it never meant a thing to you
As I look to the sky, I wonder why  you took
30 years of my life….

You wanted me no matter what the cost
And now I am the one who is lost.
I gave you so much love, all of me, 
 and you gave me some money
Never calling me Honey…. 

No time for me you say you are too
Tired some other day. Those days never
Came it was always the same. Doing for
Everyone but your wife who gave you
Her life….

I got tired of it all and left then you
Had your regrets, you begged me to come 
Back you see, I will change that was your
Plea. Why did you not let me be…

I know why as you stayed there is no
Other way, we have children they
Need us, keep them safe protect them
Don't let a stranger raise them.

You never stopped hurting me as I 
Loved you so, and now you blame me for 
Letting go.

How many years I tried and how many
Tears I cried. I did everything you see
To get you to notice me. I tried to tell you
How I feel but you never listened
To what I had to say you just gave me
Your pay and turned your head the other way.

The kids are now gone they were safe and 
Protected and now I am pushed to the
Side and rejected. I am sick of fighting you
Say,  I can't live like this another day.

You took my youth and my soul and now
I am just too old. You don't want to deal
With the pain you have caused. You just
Want to be free, let Jesus help me.

Now you have your career of 30 years
 and leaving me with nothing,
You know what you have done but
It's easier for you to turn numb.

Always needing someone else to blame
For your actions, playing the victim 
Works for you,  there is nothing I can do. 
I loved you from the start but all
You did is break my heart.

I went to church and got saved
For this marriage but you did not care
I could have left that day instead
And went to someone else's bed.
But you wanted me to stay and
 this is how I am repaid.  

You sin,  deceive and say hurtful
Things, then blame me
For what you have done. You preach forgiveness 
But that's all you do, words not actions
That's how it works make sure you
Go to church. 

You can't even be honest now
To the part you have played in this charade.
When things are not your way
You are out the door you say.

I could have left you many times
And said that's it I can't take this no
More and been out the door. But I stayed
To make it work, because no matter
What you had done my heart you had won. 

We both know exactly what this is
It's been going on for years, someone
Else has turned your head and now you 
Want them in your bed.

You see as soon as you had me at 16  
I was  never good enough, you had wandering
Eyes from the start and that tore us apart.
I begged for your love and just wanted
You to show it, act like you care just
Take notice! 

Now that things are said and done
And the fighting won't stop,  quit
Blaming me, look back at what you have done
Quit making excuses to run.
I looked to you for protection but
You wanted someone else's affection.  

It definitely cuts like a knife that I
Gave you my life. That's what I get for
Giving you my love, believing in
Promises from above………

@JCRose